The last 2 days I met with a couple of recruiters and got some grocery shopping done. Not much else really new or exciting to report. I'm going to ride from my house down to Mission Beach tomorrow and check it out. Should be a good ride. Listening to the new Coldplay and it's pretty good.
I've got 2 interviews on Tuesday, both closer to San Diego, about 25 miles away. One is a group interview which I'm not really looking for as I don't feel extremely qualified for the job. I don't like to bullshit as much around other candidates as I'm not as comfortable talking in groups. Whatever.
Things are definitely settling down now and I'm getting to face my anxieties and fears that were kind of buried on the trip out here. Coming out here I didn't feel any pressure to get a job or have something right then. I just went with the flow and let things happen. With me being settled and stagnant for now after the excitement and distraction of moving out here, all the uncomfortable feelings are coming up and I find myself obsessing to try and ignore the feelings. It doesn't work, however, the feelings and fears of getting a job I like and that I feel qualified for are still there. I know I just need to get in the damn game again. It's been forever.
I can see why so many people live hectic, nutty lives running and gunning from place to place with 2 phones in their ears and PDAs, ipods, laptops, etc. They never really have to face the discomfort that lies below. They are constantly distracted and thus never have to face the ultimate discomfort.
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