Starting Over

I've met some of the coolest people since being in Santa Clarita.  It just shows me that it really is up to me how I show up in the world and that I do reap what I sow.  I still feel like I am on vacation and with that I feel free to be talkative and open to people around me.  I also just feel better about life right now since I have a goal and direction.

I was at the car wash and I started talking to this guy for about ten minutes about what I was up to and he told me about his kids and how one worked on the dashes for Chip Foose and other top car customizers.  He had been in the movie business for 40 years and I deduce was taking it easy now out in Santa Clarita.  At the end we said farewell and he told me he would pray for me; and he was serious.  I thought that was real and a nice gesture to another stranger.  The conversation all came about as I was willing to reach out to someone else and I can feel the difference in myself as I am relaxed and am going through my day without a frustrated and pissed off demeanor.  It feels good to relax a little bit.  I also met a super cool guy in Albertson's who let me put my case of water down and to go in front of him in line.  We talked about Walmart and its cheap prices. I asked him if people in California thought the store was destructive since it is a liberal state and he thought it wasn't a big deal as most of the businesses around were small mom and pop anyway.  I'm sure with as big as everything is around California Walmart's societal and economic impact is minimized.

I was trying to figure out over this trip where I got the idea that it is not couture to blow one's nose in public.  I never do it.  I'll go to the bathroom and blow out my insides but I'll never sit out in the open in public and blow my nose.  I've seen so many people on this trip going at it in the middle of dinner in the restaurant, at the bookstore walking around, and pretty much anywhere.  I find this disgusting as a little discreteness goes a long way.  Obviously most others don't feel this way and feel no reason to do this in private.  I hate eating a nice meal and someone 4 feet away starts blowing snot into their napkin.  Maybe it's just me.  I've got a lot of little pet peeves, though.

On that note I am working on letting some of these go.  I tend to dislike dogs barking, birds chirping incessantly outside my window, and doors slamming repeatedly.  As I stay with Sean and the kids slam things around, the birds wake me up at 5:30 and the dogs bark around me, I'm trying to just let it all roll off me and let the irritability pass through me.  At times I'm ok at it and at other times I get really irritated.  I really need to let this go as it doesn't work for me to be so controlling of my physical environment.  Hopefully I can get there.

I plan to take off Sunday towards San Diego.  I've got a recruiter I need to call back as we speak.  Not sure if the job or the living situation will come first.  Definitely prefer not to commute much.